第一次

連跑帶逃似的離開

逃離我認為已經壞掉了的生活

 

離愁與不捨 不少

空虛與慌恐 更多

 

總是為了逃避某件不喜歡的事而隨意決定下一步的方向

似乎從來沒有為了"想要"這個理由去做某些事

然後便為了所謂的面子責任感及社會現實面努力撐過一個又一個階段

 

這次我逃開了

接下來呢???

 

yes u r right

i was lost

althought at each moment i was pretty aware of what i was doing

and i didnt care whether it's right or wrong

 

unfortunately

i do care about what people think of me

cause my own confidence is based on other people's compliments and attention on me

that's why i need to stop and get out of the chaos i've put myself in

i made the decision

even though there's a big possibility that i'll regret one day in the future

just as everyone has been telling me

 

still i made this decision

which i think would be better for me now

cause as always...

"i" am the first and the most major concern when deciding which fork to take